One of my greatest passions have always been expansion of consciousness. Already as a child it felt natural to me to connect and visit other realms than the so called 3D-plane. Also shadow work, or to make it less esoteric reflection and analyzation on my own and other peoples behaviors and underlying intentions, have been a natural part of my life since very young age. I never understood why people behaved like they did, or I understood exactly why they did it, but could not understand why they would not see it themselves and through adjustments find better ways to interact with themselves and others. But I do absolutely not mean that I always acted perfectly, I also took up a lot of subconscious negativ beliefs about myself and some of the behavior pattern I hated the most about people around me. 

I 'officially' started meditating 18 years ago, although meditation has so may different faces and I also started to do a kind of meditation, without knowing any concept of meditation on my own as a young child. Do to severe problems to fall asleep and laying awake in bed for hours every night I got the idea to play around with focusing on the patterns that one can see with closed eyes, which led to ending up in a floating/levitating state, which people often experience in Yoga Nidra for example.

18 years ago,  I learned more typical meditation technics and had since then a  more  on and off relation with it, but have been doing it daily for the last 4 years.

I came in contact with Yoga or better said Asanas (the physical practices, all the above is kind of doing yoga) also about 18 years ago, and like with meditating I hade some quite intensiv phases but also breaks which could take som years before picking it upp again. I did 2 yoga teacher educations but I do not really see it as my calling as profession and leave that gladly to others. I love the practice and the way it makes me feel and the connection I get to my body but I prefer it to do it for myself.

I found Breathwork (modern Breathwork) parallel to Reiki through my  Reiki master Michelle Baker about 2,5 years ago and also directly got stuck on it. Besides the help with trauma release and profound insights about myself I also love that it makes it really easy to connect to transcendental states without using any substances.

Though some substances are rightfully called sacred medicines and can have a profound healing and expending impact on your life, when used in the right way and setting. They can make it quite easy to connect to higher realms which otherwise needs years of dedicated training or special 'talents' and are like door openers to realms, that I as a child called 'the world behind' (today I would probably change it to beyond).

I personally have worked with them for 24 years (if I do not include cannabis, which is quite tricky cause it is so mild  that it easily can be misused), they always gave me personally a strong sense of coming home and I would really recommend it to everyone who feels a calling to do so, but be very really picky with the setting and people you share the experience with! Than there is also often the tendency to get too over exalted or hyped about it or even get stuck in thinking it would be a solution.

All tools and medicines are 'way-showers', can be great ones, but the insides they can give you, have to be integrated in your 'normal' life, otherwise it is kind of lost. So in my eyes, if it helps someone one can have a more intense healing phase but than later one should just revisit it very occasionally, just to see if there is some new information or focus point to work on.

I did an education as Kambo practitioner this spring. It is not the only sacred medicine I believe in, but one of the few one can work with without getting into conflict with the laws in many countries.

My work with Reiki started about 3 years ago I hand a lot of pain do to an operation and used to put a hand on my stomach to sooth the pain. One night I realized that there was something else coming from my hand than just the normal physical warmth but also some kind of vibration that was spreading which felt really nice. I tried it the next night again but could not recall what I did to start it and gave it up again.

Half a year later I stumbled up on my Master Michelle how was offering a Reiki training the following weekend. Reading the course description a was remembering that night after the operation and wondered if it was that I did. 

I went the course and since that day I was hooked. I went all other levels and not the first month, but I got kind of addicted to the befits I feel from it and have been doing it daily since.

I really love it as a tool and it helped me so much in releasing trauma and today I still love it for cleansing my energy that I pick up during the day and use it to stabilize my own heighten energy level. 

I also hired a studio and was offering Reiki sessions for halv a year, but besides that I can not say that people in Stockholm were queuing infront of my door I do not think this is what I want to do anymore. I worked so hard on my own energy and though I do not mean that I do not want to help people that really need help and want to work on themselves, I really prefer to be in my own energy and feel also the price I would now take for cleaning someone else would be to high for most to afford.

Lastly said about the tools, most of them can be sold in a more scientific and analytical way about nervous system regulation, emotional or mental regulation, which is very important part of knowing oneself and living a healthy live but for me personally the spiritual part is the most important. And I do not mean spirituality as something outside  and mysterious but more as a normal completion, that I as much as I connect to the outside world, I should connect to my inside world and know as much about it as possible, to orchestrate my hole being in the best way; to see and realize the mirroring aspect of my inside and outside and the connection I built with myself (how deep, true, compassionate and loving) which is always connected to ability to connect with other people. For me it always felt naturally, but I think it would to the most , if one stopps mystifying it and realizes that it actually is really basic for living an all around happy live. And it should not be separated from your 'earthly' live, built an equal part.

We all have our soul, mind, emotions and physical body, no part is better or worth more  than the others and just in full contact and balance of all parts we can completely experience and enjoy what it means to be human and to be alive.